Kee Ping's Invasion

How many days do you need to plan for a holiday? For Lim Kee Ping, he needs less than 5 days. Last weekend when i was busy moving in to my new place, i got a message from him saying that he is coming to visit me in the next few days. 'He must be kidding', I thought. Apparently not, he had everything sorted out before he dropped the message. Salute!

Introducing Lim Kee Ping, haha! Standing at the top of the hill, pretending to be blown away by the wind.

Highlight of his visit: cyling trip up to Port Hill. It was really a fitness challenge, it took us almost 2 hours to reach the top of the hill. My poor little bicycle, it must had suffered a lot throughout the whole journey.

One of the landmark of the hill, Sign of the Kiwi. Actually it is just a rest station that sells coffee and ice creams.

It's so hard to snap a nice smilling picture of him, this is one of the rare ones. Picture taken at the botanical garden. I really enjoy his company, especially at this dark times of my life, sob sob... Anyway, hope he will come again in the future. I promise, no more torturing, haha!

11/11

Eleventh of Nov, 2010, a day that i shall not forget for the rest of my life.

I still can remembered vividly the moment when i opened my email indicating exam's result. The heart was pounding so fast that the breathing could barely catch up. But when i saw the four letter F word inside the email content, my heart sank. The whole world seemed to stop momentarily for me to digest the information. I rubbed my eyes and looked at it carefully. No error noted. And for the fist time in my life, i stared blank into the space and wonder if this is reality or nightmare.

'You dumb boy, we ain't going to give you a second chance and you better get your ass back for another year here.' I felt like the email is saying that to me.

I am ashamed. I don't know how to face my family. They have been working so hard just to let me get an overseas certificate. Studying medicine privately in foreign land is ain't cheap. With that amount of money, they could have a few more properties in my hometown or travel around the world for a few times. But i let them down. I don't want to tell them, 'mum and dad, you can't retire so soon because i still need your support to continue my education.' Only an irresponsible, inconsiderate, imbecile child will say that. And guess what, i'm actually that child.

Thank goodness, i have been hearing words of comfort from friends and family. Though they kept saying it's nobody fault, i know deep down inside, i'm the one to be blamed. I should have study harder, i should have taken it more seriously, i should have be more enthusiastic, i should have.... But everything is too late now.

Every now and then, this feeling of failure will stab it to my heart as if it will never go away. I'm petrified. My life seems so aimless except to clean up this mess. I hate myself. I hate this life.

The purpose of writing this post, actually is to tell the people that i love, that i'm in a real bad situation. I would be lying if i say i'm perfectly fine. But i can assure y'all i will be alright, eventually. Hopefully time will be a good healing factor. Gotta need some time to compose myself and fight again.

Holiday

Exam is over, yeah! Gonna spend this short holiday doing anything that does not require brain activities. Feel so drained at the moment...

Flying up to auckland this friday and attend james's debut performance on stage production. This holiday is gonna be sweet.

Time To Ignite The Midnight Oil

A week of study break, is it enough to cram all the important knowledge into my tiny brain?

Recently my electronic stuffs have been turning their back on me. At first, my mouse which i bought earlier this year was broken. The problem was probably at the roller, it kept fibrillating up and down the screen whenever i plugged it to my computer. And few days ago, my phone started throwing temper. It kept resetting itself with no reason. I won't be getting a new phone until i finish my exam, so for those who want to get hold of me, email and fb will be fine.

I was browsing the internet for new phone justnow, don't know what should i get. iphone was bloody expensive, but it looks cool and fancy. I am hoping to get a smartphone, any good suggestions?

Anyway, this whole week is solely dedicated for study, please grant me infinite energy and memory.

The End?

It's the final week of my final run of the year. Tonnes of exams are pouring in, wish me luck.

Exclusive Club

Few weeks ago, the cafe in my school put up this new sign board. Finally i'm in some kind of exclusive club, haha! Actually it's just an ordinary cafe, no comfy couch or open bar, no live band or fancy decor, it's just a place where people like to hang out. Oh, there is free coffee and hot chocolate though. For food, we still need to pay $$$, sigh...

Road Sign

I have never seen this road sign until i came to christchurch. It didn't draw much attention to me because i seldom cycle along the tram track. But guess what, few days ago when i was cutting corner to a restaurant for dinner, my bike got stucked and i fell over. It was so embarrasing... Lessons of the day: do not cut corner and road bike's tire isn't that perfect after all.